God’s ways are not our ways. We’ve all heard someone say it or said it ourselves.
“This can’t be it.” “There’s no way this is what God wants me to do for the rest of my life.”
If I could’ve had a jesting competition with my own thoughts, these would have been my two competitors on the daily.
Because there they were, showing up every morning as I got up and did the getting-ready routine.
I appreciated my job as a cleaner at the College where I work, but I wasn’t passionate about it.
I don’t think anyone could truly be passionate about cleaning toilets and picking up coffee mugs after students day after day.
But as the verse goes, “He works all things together for our good.” Even something as mundane as cleaning.
His Ways Are Not Our Ways, They Are For His Purposes
Are you in a place of wondering what it is that God wants you to do with your life?
How you can best serve Him and yet your current circumstances don’t seem to line up at all with what He has promised you?
I challenge you to dig deep into God’s Word and cling to his goodness, to look for the ways He’s blessing you right now.
I was in that place of wondering for nearly a decade, but I know there are new things on the horizon. He has taken me a long way, I’m not the same person I was even a year ago.
You Can’t Rush God’s Timing
In the summer of 2012, I quit my job at the college. At that time, I was doing food prep in the kitchen.
And it was during those months of wandering about, not really including God in my plan, that He taught me a humbling and valuable lesson.
I was rushing around, trying to get to the grand thing I thought would fulfill me and please God. Yes, I had it so backwards.
Yet all along, God only wanted my heart.
What kind of heart does sweeping floors, unplugging toilets, and vacuuming the entrance carpet day after day and day after day require?
A servant heart.
And when I think about it, any job God gives us should require that kind of heart.
He needs to know that He can trust us. That we will come to Him no matter what. That we won’t be in it for our own ambitions and lose sight of the fact that He is the one who brought us to this place.
That doesn’t mean we need to be perfect, because we all know that’s not possible.
We get to play a part in His ways, but it is all His.
That’s why He allows for those seasons in the wilderness.
Those seasons of obscurity and monotony, of feeling lost and confused. The servant has to learn what it means to be a servant, and that can only happen when we are at a place we can’t understand.
When we are at the end of ourselves.
A season of doing something or being somewhere you don’t really want to be.
Feeling like you should be doing more, like there has to more because your heart is aching so much at the thought of not fulfilling God’s purposes for you on this earth.
I don’t know what your wilderness looks like, or how the season was, is or will be, but I do know this:
God’s Ways Are For Our Good. It Is All For Our Good
I’ve been at this job for ten years now. And in those years, God has developed my character, taught me patience and humility and shaped me into a better and kinder human being.
You see, we all want to get to the “fun and fulfilling part” of our life. But until we learn that our fulfillment comes from Jesus, no job, no relationship or calling will ever be enough.
Until we learn that “ministry starts with loving the person in front of you,” nothing else that you do out there will matter.
You can have the biggest dreams and God can have a tremendous calling on your life, but it can’t happen unless you realize that it starts with where you are right now.
If you want to start up your own soup kitchen or restaurant, but grumble and loathe doing the dishes in your own home, there’s more work that needs to be done.
If you want to write a book about marriage but you don’t appreciate your own husband in your own home, God won’t be able to bless that book and all it could’ve done.
This is not to shame or guilt anyone. It’s simply eye opening when we start to think of the bigger picture.
God is not in a hurry; there is so much more to it than just our own life.
Matthew 5:3 says:
You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.
The end of my rope…a blessing? That can be hard to believe when we’re stuck in our own minds of how we think things should be.
I had to learn to be content where I was with my job, with what I had. And it’s been a very valuable lesson.
It’s made me more aware, more humble and more appreciative. It was a blessing indeed.
When God Reveals His Ways
Somehow, someway, in the last two years, God has shown me this whole interior decorating world and community on Instagram, and I couldn’t love it more.
How do I know it’s from Him?
Because I never saw it coming in a million years, nor did I even understand this all existed. When I threw my first photo up on Instagram (and many after that, even to this day sometimes), I had no clue what I was doing.
But slowly over time, He kept revealing more things to me.
It led to this blog.
And the crazy thing? Writing is something I’ve always felt called to do since I was a young girl, I just never knew how to pursue it or how it would manifest itself.
Even though I’ve never been able to wrap my mind around what food prep and cleaning have to do with decorating and blogging, I know that it was God’s way.
He had lessons and revelations in those years for me that I cherish even more now as I look back.
What Does God’s Way Look Like In Your Life?
I think each one of us would answer that differently, because we all lead our own lives and all have a unique calling.
Whether you’re in a hard season, a wilderness season or in a fulfilling season, just know that God is in control.
He has good plans for you, and He will see them through.
In the meantime, we can work on our hearts and be the best person we can be to serve and glorify Him.